tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29327364461116824882024-03-21T02:17:56.891-05:00My Lapband JournalCeeJayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08108144896669458008noreply@blogger.comBlogger502125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2932736446111682488.post-9406716275511001502012-12-20T09:03:00.001-06:002012-12-20T09:03:28.864-06:00TOPS Weigh InWell, last night I went to my 2nd TOPS weigh in and I was the biggest loser for the week! Yippee. Recorded a loss of 3.6 pounds, from 250.4 to 246.8. <br />
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I was very good about eating breakfast all last week and using my food diary. I did have to survive a Christmas party at work, but apparently must have done OK. <br />
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Just gotta keep it up. We won't meet for TOPS again until after Christmas and New Year. Gotta be sensible. CeeJayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08108144896669458008noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2932736446111682488.post-57275014218792790092012-12-14T11:21:00.002-06:002012-12-14T11:22:15.445-06:00For Today...Ate breakfast of an apple with low fat caramel (yeah I know it's a little decadent but at least I had fruit!) Listening to my body, eating when my stomach growls so I had some string cheese at about 11 AM. Trying to keep healthy snacks in the fridge at work. Keeping my food diary, shooting for 1500 calories per day. Yesterday I had just a little over 1400 calories. <br />
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I forgot that when you eat healthy you actually can eat a larger volume of food and it is more satisfying. I just totally got out of that habit. I'm trying. Baby steps. Thanks for the encouraging comments all! :)CeeJayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08108144896669458008noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2932736446111682488.post-57307007541603656822012-12-13T07:22:00.000-06:002012-12-13T07:22:05.887-06:00For Today...OK, I got a better start today. I went to my first TOPS meeting last night. First official weigh-in (fully clothed) was 250.4. Goal for this week is to eat breakfast each day and to keep a food diary. So this morning I made myself an egg and some peaches. It's a start. CeeJayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08108144896669458008noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2932736446111682488.post-55907816962110617712012-12-10T10:08:00.001-06:002012-12-10T10:08:44.810-06:00Day One...AgainI've lost myself. I haven't been back to these pages in months. My weight has continues to increase as I have used food as an emotional bandaid in my life lately. Stresses at work and in my personal life have been difficult and I have fallen back into old patterns. <br />
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My weight today is 249. This is an awful number to write here. I know that I desperately need to change my life. I have chosen to ignore my own well being and have soothed myself with the foods that bring me happiness--well temporary happiness, but eventually pain. <br />
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So here's where things stand:<br />
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<li>I am not using my YMCA membership--either start using it or cancel it.</li>
<li>Start eating real food again, you cannot survive on the absolute junk you have been eating lately. There is no nutrition in it.</li>
<li>Start eating breakfast again, you quit when your band was too tight, but now you need the nutrition to start your day right.</li>
<li>You must keep a food diary. It is the only way you can be accountable. </li>
<li>You need to concentrate on protein again, and get rid of the carbs and sugar. </li>
<li>You should blog again, just another place to report progress and be accountable. Perhaps you even need an outside source to report to. TOPS? Weight Watchers? A friend or family member?</li>
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It's time to start over. One day at a time. CeeJayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08108144896669458008noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2932736446111682488.post-15464861698541140842012-09-26T11:14:00.001-05:002012-09-26T11:14:36.368-05:00Doing Good So FarHere's the report for the week...<br />
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<li>The scale is down 4 pounds to 228 (gotta be water weight, but I will take it!)</li>
<li>Been to the Y three days in a row, walking, cardio machines and the pool!</li>
<li>Kept food diary three days in a row, meeting calorie goals each day! </li>
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Carry on! <br />
CeeJayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08108144896669458008noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2932736446111682488.post-43588853160660378922012-09-24T08:28:00.002-05:002012-09-24T08:28:45.689-05:00It's a New Day!It's a new day of living a better life. I have used a plethora of excuses for about a year and it hasn't gotten me anywhere but fat. So today, I promised I got myself out of bed at 6:00 AM and went to the YMCA. I walked and did several machines, exercising for about an hour. I had yogurt and a bit of granola for breakfast and tracked everything in MyFitnessPal. A good start, now to repeat and repeat and repeat. Scale said 232 this morning. That has to change!CeeJayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08108144896669458008noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2932736446111682488.post-75855939226400349832012-09-23T17:06:00.000-05:002012-09-23T17:06:02.646-05:00Today is The Free-For-All...Then Tomorrow Starts!Well, it's time to shake things up. Today I am having a free-for-all food wise. But I hope to make it my last for a long time. It's time to take hold of my life again and do good things for myself. I have not been feeding my body well for a long, long time and the scale shows it, my too tight clothes show it and I have had enough. So today was the day for Oreo's, Cheetos, pizza, ice cream and the rest of the crap I have been choosing for myself. Enough is enough. So get it out of your system and tomorrow is a brand new day. Here's the plan:<br />
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<li>Get up at 6:00 AM and go to the YMCA for exercise</li>
<li>Eat a good breakfast</li>
<li>Keep my food diary again, shooting for 1500 calories per day</li>
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Day one is coming. I am ready to embrace it again. Scale today reads 230 and I am tired of it. I will work on losing again and I will succeed. <br />
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CeeJayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08108144896669458008noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2932736446111682488.post-58746665906395335572012-09-05T07:50:00.002-05:002012-09-05T07:51:25.045-05:00Angry BandI have an angry band this morning. It was irritated on Saturday after a vomiting episode and I didn't take very good care of it. Then I had another episode last night. This morning, water is painfully going down. Well, guess today is liquids for me. Sigh. I gotta take better care of my tool.<br />
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By the way, the scale says 229 and I am 40 today. CeeJayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08108144896669458008noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2932736446111682488.post-57956203075860908312012-08-26T10:10:00.001-05:002012-08-26T10:10:29.501-05:00Good RestrictionFeeling good about my last fill. It took a few days to get used to the new normal, but I am feeling very good about it. I can still eat normally when out with a group, but only 1/2 of a meal or less. So I feel good about that. Scale today said 225. Woohoo! It's slow, but at least is steadily heading downward. I know that exercise would help a lot, but I am having trouble squeezing it in--which is a good thing right now, as I found a new friend, via Match.com and he and I have been spending a good amount of time together. Life is getting better all the time. I feel content. :) CeeJayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08108144896669458008noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2932736446111682488.post-41931577857580719652012-08-18T12:54:00.001-05:002012-08-18T12:54:28.348-05:00Slow is the Way to GoEating is a very slow process these days, and I need to get used to that again. I also need to get out of the habit of "finishing my plate". When I feel full, I need to stop. But sometime I feel like I didn't get enough, nutrition wise. Such a fine line of just enough and not too much. <br />
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Been trying to exercise when I can, I wish that my schedule was a little more forgiving sometimes but again, it is all about finding a balance. Scale says 226--but TOM is here, so I am just fine with that number. I just need to keep working on it. Steady is a good thing. CeeJayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08108144896669458008noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2932736446111682488.post-22020095169027322542012-08-17T08:25:00.001-05:002012-08-17T08:25:34.188-05:00Saw a Glimpse of 225It was a very short, fleeting moment that could not be repeated, but for just one moment this morning I saw a new number of 225. Thankfully the scale is headed downward. I am having a littel trouble eating this morning, feeling a little stuck after about half of my fruit and yogurt parfait. I must not have chewed my first bites well enough. It is also TOM this week, so perhaps my hormones are wreaking havoc on me too. At any rate, things are looking better for the moment. CeeJayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08108144896669458008noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2932736446111682488.post-68598111324688364792012-08-15T12:01:00.000-05:002012-08-15T12:01:18.494-05:00Oh How Fickle!Part of me says I am to tight, part of me says this is just going to take a little adjustment after having been so loose for so long. It's iffy right now. I have been trying to listen to my body and when I feel a soft stop, I stop. I don't want to abuse my band. But I am back to VERY small portions. Guess I need to give it a little time and if I still feel too tight in a week or two, then it's back to my doc's office for a tweak. Be smart, don't tolerate being too tight. <br />
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On a good note the scale is down again, today it said 226. Making slow progress. My schedule is wreaking havoc with my exercise right now though. Gotta find a way to squeeze that in. <br />
CeeJayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08108144896669458008noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2932736446111682488.post-50831813070522393142012-08-14T13:04:00.001-05:002012-08-15T11:57:58.317-05:00Restriction...I Forgot What You Felt LikeOh my, lunch today was a bit of a surprise. I had just gotten my fill yesterday--I thought it was rather non-aggressive, so I was surprised to day when scrambled eggs for lunch just did not agree with me. Vomit and sliming is not good. Guess I better think twice about my foods choices this week. This morning yogurt and granola went down OK, but I did feel a little tightness at the end. Don't want to make my newly tight band angry. Must behave myself until I am used to this new restriction level. Getting filled is always a new adventure in eating! CeeJayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08108144896669458008noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2932736446111682488.post-78036383546875128972012-08-14T09:42:00.001-05:002012-08-14T09:42:55.287-05:00Keeping Up to Keep Weight Off<a href="http://articles.chicagotribune.com/2012-07-11/site/sc-health-0711-obesity-20120711_1_extra-calories-caloric-deficits-weight-loss">Keeping up to keep weight off</a><br />
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Very interesting (and frustrating) article that my bariatric clinic shared with us this morning. Ugh, no wonder I struggle. It is a constantly moving target. CeeJayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08108144896669458008noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2932736446111682488.post-19918051223670962682012-08-13T19:09:00.002-05:002012-08-13T19:09:35.971-05:00No Loss, But No Gain...That's a Victory!I had a fill appointment today and I was so pleased to see that the scale was exactly the same as my last visit about a month ago on July 3rd. There is a lot to be said for maintaining for me right now. So I think I have a good exercise plan in place, but I need to curb my snacking. I also think I need to just chose better, more nutritious food. I have been choosing crap and have been feeling empty and unsatisfied so I go looking for more food. I didn't lose like I had hoped to, but at this point, maintaining is an awesome thing. Hope I can get my act together soon. Willpower, determination and choice are the only things that will work. I am glad for a new restriction level again. Small steps. CeeJayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08108144896669458008noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2932736446111682488.post-64344125341221598792012-08-01T14:21:00.002-05:002012-08-01T14:23:52.764-05:00Interesting Theory About Pouch Size<div class="text_exposed_root text_exposed">
This was information that was on my hospital's baratric Facebook page today. Interesting reading! </div>
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Are you curious about how big (or how much) your pouch holds? A simple way to check is the cottage cheese test created by Dr. Flanagan. </div>
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Dr. Flanagan's research shows the average volume of a GB patient is about 5 1/2 oz. Per his research, even pouches that hold up to 9 oz have no impact on a person's success with weight loss. <br />
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Have a great day, ~Stephanie</div>
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I am trying to find my sanity back where it comes to my band. I feel Ike I have forgotten how to lose weight...or perhaps just the gumption to get it done. At any rate, every day I think it's gonna be a good day and then I blow it midday and throw caution to the wind. This temporary liquid diet has helped me to slow down the calorie intake for the weekend so thank God for that. Just keep trying. Scale graciously gave me 226 today.CeeJayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08108144896669458008noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2932736446111682488.post-50284419198590315902012-07-28T14:42:00.001-05:002012-07-28T14:43:29.175-05:00Pickles Cause Angry BandOh my! Dill pickles have caused me to have an angry band. I think it was slightly upset with me over a drinking and eating feast on Friday night and now it appears that pickles at lunch time have angered it more. I think it would be best to do liquids again for a day or so. Damn.CeeJayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08108144896669458008noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2932736446111682488.post-2347056521098205412012-07-26T08:26:00.002-05:002012-07-26T08:26:49.290-05:00Why Do I Keep Doing That?Every day I start out the day healthy and on a good track. But then...it just goes down hill. I have been eating the most awful snacks lately. Someone brought donuts to the office and I had more than my share of them. I made brownies at home and ate the whole pan over the weekend. I have been eating Mike and Ike's from the vending machine. I just can't quit snacking on pure sugar. This is mental. I am choosing to sabotage myself. Why is making the right decision so hard? Today the scale is at 228. I know what I am doing wrong but I can't make myself do the right thing.CeeJayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08108144896669458008noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2932736446111682488.post-22555032641494804292012-07-19T10:29:00.001-05:002012-07-19T10:29:57.990-05:00Up and Down...Up and DownI have been absolutely amazed lately at the swings the scale has taken. Friday was 224, Tuesday was 229 and today was 227. I have never had such inconsistencies. One pound maybe, but not 3-5 at a time. I feel like I don't know my own body anymore. My main goal right now is to be at a lower weight than the previous 230 at my next fill appointment on August 13th. I have been trying to keep true to my food diary, I continue to exercise and have been trying hard to drink more water. I don't know what else to do. Just keep trying. It is a real mental battle right now.CeeJayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08108144896669458008noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2932736446111682488.post-31342665755990414492012-07-13T07:25:00.002-05:002012-07-13T07:25:45.771-05:00Stepped on the ScaleWell, I didn't expect miracles and I tried not to even guess about a number, I just stepped on the scale and faced reality. So, the number is 224. My doc's office was 230--of course the two never match exactly, but at least that is better. I had weighed in on my own scale on July 5 and it was 225. So whichever number you choose it is still a loss and I will take it!!! I know that I made better choices in the last week or so and I feel good about that. I still have work to do and probably always will. For now, I will take even the smallest move downward.CeeJayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08108144896669458008noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2932736446111682488.post-13097750846157589292012-07-07T20:07:00.002-05:002012-07-07T20:12:28.316-05:00Better Day TodayToday I was really trying to focus on doing the right thing. Replacing crappy foods for good home cooked foods and very low calorie snack choices has helped my attitude immensely. I went to water aerobics this morning where we did a high intensity workout of "100's" and I also took a 40 minute walk tonight. I have also been trying to drink more water and zero calorie liquids. I had a good day, now I just need to keep repeating those.<br />
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My nine pound gain at my doc's office was a good source of motivation for me. I don't want to feel that bad again. I was so disappointed in myself. I want to fee proud of myself and for the first time in quite a while I feel good about stringing together a couple of good days. Now I just need to do it again and again and again.CeeJayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08108144896669458008noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2932736446111682488.post-24055673394228518872012-07-06T18:59:00.001-05:002012-07-06T18:59:13.636-05:00I'm TryingI'm trying...that is my mantra. I am happy with my current level of restriction, as I can just feel my band once in a while. I am trying to eat, good nutritious foods and for the most part I have avoided snacking. I realize that I need to get back to basics, cooking for myself. I feel so much more satisfied with home cooked meals--with a little help from some convenience foods too. Tonight I made kind of a "hash". It had seasoned potatoes--they are precooked in the refrigerated isle and I added turkey sausage to that. I had a huge portion of satisfying, tasty food that I measured and weighed to get the portion sizes and calories right and it was only 320 calories. How many times have I chosen the wrong things with little nutrition and left me wanting something else? I have to cook again.<br />
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So for tomorrow, I am making my Turkey Meatloaf recipe and I will also make sweet potatoes to go with it. I am already looking forward to it. Turkey makes it so low cal compared to pork or beef. I did really good at the grocery store tonight, sticking to my list. I remembered an old trick for getting my sweet dessert fix on. I used to always eat sugar free Jello with fat free/sugar free Cool Whip. I can have a whole bowl full of yummy sweetness for only about 40 calories. I also bought some fruit to try to satisfy my sweet tooth. Abstinence just doesn't work for me, it always backfires. So I have to try to find acceptable alternatives to having my sweets.<br />
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I have a little over 200 calories left for the day and feel quite satisfied.Back to the basics! I haven't gotten on the scale, and plan to stay off it until next Friday. That's a bit of torture as I am a bit psycho when it comes to the scale. But I think this is a good respite. Just concentrate on good choices.CeeJayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08108144896669458008noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2932736446111682488.post-33281041927547178082012-07-05T13:26:00.008-05:002012-07-05T13:27:06.836-05:00You Are More Important Than This Number<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">
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<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgg3HqvvSUUhNvc5EblySPbYJJ-MJ-X1ZJq1fH54ntqcs4SVGWG0dQHhIAkoqhzQxHiQx8YAq5NKXAizmIhb0kb9ZaLDNfBsDi31uMyKSxNfMCYZiYaOdxB0m2TZBlfH3Vo9DnZeT6T-EiE/s1600/scale+graphic.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgg3HqvvSUUhNvc5EblySPbYJJ-MJ-X1ZJq1fH54ntqcs4SVGWG0dQHhIAkoqhzQxHiQx8YAq5NKXAizmIhb0kb9ZaLDNfBsDi31uMyKSxNfMCYZiYaOdxB0m2TZBlfH3Vo9DnZeT6T-EiE/s1600/scale+graphic.jpg" /></a>Amen to that! I got this little message from my Bariatric support groups Facebook post for today. I think I need to stay away from the scale for a while and just work my plan. I need to take a break from some things, like obsessing about the scale. It tires me out. So instead I will concentrate on keeping my food diary and exercising. That's it. So I vow not to look at the scale for at least one week. So I plan to stay off the scale until next Friday, July 13...ooh could that be ominous? Nah, I'm not too superstitious. LOL. Tonight I plan on going to my water aerobics class and so far I have done great on my calories and no snacking today. Stay focused! It will make a difference. <br />
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