So here's the latest...called HCMTI on Wedenesday of this week and left a voice mail. No one called me back, so I called again on Friday. It talked to Troy, who I had talked to a few times before. He was the one I talked to in mid-September that promised and answer by the end of the month. That obviously came and went. So I asked him the status again, and he gave many excuses about the company changing hands in October and he said some not so nice things about his former employer. Something to the effect of "they had their head stuck somewhere it shouldn't be." Or something like that.
Anyway he promised an answer again soon and said that everything in my file looked good and that it was just waiting to be signed off by the director. So I told him that I wanted to voice my frustrations and to tell his superiors that they are dealing with people's lives here. He said he would pass on the message and I tried not to be a bitch, but just to calmly tell him how the waiting really sucked. So I am sitting and waiting again. I don't know where things will go from here or what my recourse is if I don't get an answer within a reasonable amount of time.
I am still a little torn emotionally as I hope I am ready to tackle the potential changes that could be ahead for me. I am seeing a counselor/therapist about some depression and self esteem issues and I hope that will help me to work through this process both physically and emotionally. I also have some concerns financially as I know there will be some out of pocket costs and I am not sure I prepared for that. But perhaps if I get to that stage of things I can make some arrangements with family to borrow money if needed. Lots of things are up in the air yet. I just don't know how to feel. I should be happy I suppose, instead I am feeling a little unsure. Maybe that's normal? Who knows what "normal" is anyway?