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TIme to Turn the Page...

Well, I have had what is perhaps the most tumultuous year of my life and I feel like it is time for me to turn the page on the past and get my life in order again. Since April of last year I have been through job loss, job interviews, moving twice, port revision surgery, falling in love, an engagement, a broken engagement, the end of a relationship, going back to therapy, increasing my antidepressant dosage and the most recent in my line of not so lucky stuff is dealing with gall stones. Well, I am tired of the path I am on and I refuse to let my life take me in that direction anymore. I see now that I am stong enough to withstand just about anything. 

So here's the problem...or perhaps let's call it a challenge instead...I have gained back about 25 pounds this past year. It is a number I am not proud of and I know that I can do better for myself. I have a lapband adjustment scheduled for next week, I have a brand new pair of walking shoes and a membership at the Y. I just download the newest calorie tracking app to my smart phone and I am ready to tackle those 25 pounds so that I can once again be counted among the people who live in onederland. It's time to find me again.

ADD, Gall Bladder and LIfe

I totally feel like I have ADD when it comes to taking care of myself. I can concentrate for about a minute and then I totally lose my focus. My personal life is handing me some unexpected challenges and it is affecting my eating, exercising, sleeping and nearly every part of my life. It's too hard to concentrate on this right now.

To make things worse, I think I have started to have occasional gall bladder attacks. I have incredible pain for 20-30 minutes at a time, typically after a fatty meal---yeah I know, I shouldn't be eating those types of things that would trigger an attack.

Ugh. I am feeling so cruddy right now.