Monday, December 10, 2012

Day One...Again

I've lost myself. I haven't been back to these pages in months. My weight has continues to increase as I have used food as an emotional bandaid in my life lately. Stresses at work and in my personal life have been difficult and I have fallen back into old patterns.

My weight today is 249. This is an awful number to write here. I know that I desperately need to change my life. I have chosen to ignore my own well being and have soothed myself with the foods that bring me happiness--well temporary happiness, but eventually pain.

So here's where things stand:

  • I am not using my YMCA membership--either start using it or cancel it.
  • Start eating real food again, you cannot survive on the absolute junk you have been eating lately. There is no nutrition in it.
  • Start eating breakfast again, you quit when your band was too tight, but now you need the nutrition to start your day right.
  • You must keep a food diary. It is the only way you can be accountable.
  • You need to concentrate on protein again, and get rid of the carbs and sugar.
  • You should blog again, just another place to report progress and be accountable. Perhaps you even need an outside source to report to. TOPS? Weight Watchers? A friend or family member?
It's time to start over. One day at a time.


  1. You can do this. You have a great tool. I don't always comment, but am sending good thoughts your way. You go girl.

  2. Ceejay. Know that we are here to support you. It wiilow neve be easy for any of us. But you can do this.

  3. Good to hear from you :)

    Isn't great that you can pick yourself up and start again with the's adjustable! :) The ONLY WLS that is!

    Are you hungry? Need a fill?