Well, this week has been an unbelievable shock. Facing major funding cuts, my employer announced a drastic reorganization plan this week. I knew there were cuts coming, but I had no idea the extent of the changes. So on Tuesday of this week I was given a letter stating that my job no longer existed (read...your fired). The reorganization will close dozens of offices across the state and we will now be creating seven regional centers. If I want a job I have to re-apply for it with no guarantees of getting hired. And oh by the way, the closest regional centers are 100 miles away from where I live. There have been lots of tears, anger and worry. If (and that's a big IF) I get rehired will I have to move? Will I commute? Is that even feasible? Should I look for something else? I'm polishing up my resume and trying to come up with answers.
Of course those of you who read my blog know that my life has just started to get interesting with Hottie in a Uniform. Now with these impending job changes it has thrown a monkey wrench in all of that. Life is so unfair. I need to pay the bills, so staying gainfully employed is a priority, but for the first time in my life I want to make my personal life a priority. What in the world will I do. It is so unfair. Two months ago I would have said, just give me a job wherever and I will move. But now, because of Josh and I want to stay here and find out if we have a future. Oh I wish I had a crystal ball. Our relationship is too new to ask those kind of life changing questions. But I have hope that maybe we have a good thing going and that could change my life in such a different direction.
Of course when you are handed a shock like that, it's easy to "eat your feelings" so exercise and eating right have been far down the priority list. Right now it's all about survival. Sometimes that means having a brownie sundae for supper. It has been a terribly emotional week, as I worry not only about myself but all of my friends and co-workers who are also trying to pick up the pieces from this week's shocking news. It's been a rough week and I am afraid there are many trying days ahead.