Well, this week has been an unbelievable shock. Facing major funding cuts, my employer announced a drastic reorganization plan this week. I knew there were cuts coming, but I had no idea the extent of the changes. So on Tuesday of this week I was given a letter stating that my job no longer existed (read...your fired). The reorganization will close dozens of offices across the state and we will now be creating seven regional centers. If I want a job I have to re-apply for it with no guarantees of getting hired. And oh by the way, the closest regional centers are 100 miles away from where I live. There have been lots of tears, anger and worry. If (and that's a big IF) I get rehired will I have to move? Will I commute? Is that even feasible? Should I look for something else? I'm polishing up my resume and trying to come up with answers.
Of course those of you who read my blog know that my life has just started to get interesting with Hottie in a Uniform. Now with these impending job changes it has thrown a monkey wrench in all of that. Life is so unfair. I need to pay the bills, so staying gainfully employed is a priority, but for the first time in my life I want to make my personal life a priority. What in the world will I do. It is so unfair. Two months ago I would have said, just give me a job wherever and I will move. But now, because of Josh and I want to stay here and find out if we have a future. Oh I wish I had a crystal ball. Our relationship is too new to ask those kind of life changing questions. But I have hope that maybe we have a good thing going and that could change my life in such a different direction.
Of course when you are handed a shock like that, it's easy to "eat your feelings" so exercise and eating right have been far down the priority list. Right now it's all about survival. Sometimes that means having a brownie sundae for supper. It has been a terribly emotional week, as I worry not only about myself but all of my friends and co-workers who are also trying to pick up the pieces from this week's shocking news. It's been a rough week and I am afraid there are many trying days ahead.
Pug Ceejay that is horrible news! Time to make some hard thought realizations on life. As for Josh, seek him for some guidance on this matter. You will learn a lot from his responses regarding his true intentions.
ReplyDeleteThat is horrible news :( I hope that everything works out for you. Life is full of curve balls.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry Ceejay! I agree with Heather---talk to Josh about your relationship, the job changes, etc. Good idea to polish up the resume. Best of luck! Keep us posted. *HUGS*
ReplyDeleteWhat a shock, I'm sorry that this has happened. Is Josh's job safe? (you do work together don't you?)
ReplyDeleteThink that Heather is right, talk to him about it in general terms maybe?
Oh gosh I'm so sorry. I hope that in just a few weeks time you'll look back at this and say it was a blessing in disguise and you're AOK.
ReplyDeleteOh, I'm so sorry about this! The uncertainty has to be scary. I'm certain that you are in a much better position now though to be looking for work. Hang in there....and best of luck!
ReplyDeleteOh Ceejay, I am so sorry this happened to you. We had layoffs at my job last week and it's so awful. Definitely try to talk to hottie if possible.
ReplyDeleteHopefully the uncertainty will bring good changes. Also, if you do decide to look for new job options think how much more confident you will be after losing so much weight.
scary times indeed. But I think thanks to the journey you've been on in the past year and a bit that you're in a MUCH better position to face it all head on - the good, the bad, the ugly.
ReplyDeleteI agree with the others who've suggested you sit down and talk with mr hottie. You're not pressing him for answers at this point, but you definitely need to get an idea of where his head is up before you start planning your next moves around him and a fledgling relationship.
Try not to turn to food for comfort or relief. that's not going to help long term. We're here whenever you need us!
I'm so sorry to hear this new, Ceejay, but am confident you will come out on top of this!
ReplyDeletei would not ask for a commitment so soon in a relationship. nobody likes to feel pressure. just enjoy the ride. as for a job. apply to your current job and others. see what offers you get. then decide from there what is the best choice for you. if you do have to travel 100 miles to work i wouldnt move right away. i would commute and see where i want to go from there. dont jump the gun. and everything will work out.
ReplyDeleteI agree with everyone else! And I hope that everything turns out the way you want it to!!!
ReplyDeleteSo sorry. Don't be too hard on yourself, emotional eating is really a drag but when you are in "survival mode" the last thing you need to be doing is beating yourself up.
ReplyDeleteHope things start to look up.
I'm so sorry you have to go through this. Hopefully it is a blessing in disguise and you find an even better job.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry to hear this. I went through the same thing last year (exactly 30 days after banding) and it was terrible. It will all work out one way or another though. I'll keep sending you good thoughts.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry! I hope that your dream alternative reveals itself to you and all goes well.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry to hear about this Cheryl. But, maybe it's an opportunity for new exciting things in your life.
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