OK, so I am trying to mend my ways and I am trying to think of the positive stuff again. So here's some good stuff for today...a good friend of mine wrote me a message on Facebook responding to a new profile picture I had put up, saying "good lord you are wasting away. you look great. but then i always thought you did!!!!!" Ha ha! Me...wasting away! What a wonderful compliment! She and I went to high school together and I am sure she hasn't seen me this "skinny" ever. She has also struggled with her weight in her lifetime so I am sure she knows both the success and failure of trying to change your life for the better. What an awesome thing for her to say. Great NSV even when the scale doesn't like me--a great reminder that the scale is not the only measure of my success.
I am so surprised when I share comparison pictures with friends and family, that many of them have said, "I never saw you as being that big." Isn't it funny how the ones that love you, truly do love you for who you are not what you look like. They really put on rose colored glasses to your size and love you for who you are. It's only when looking at the new version of me that they see that I am so improved. It's not that they like me any better because I am skinny, instead they are happy that I am becoming a newer, better version of who I always was. That's an awesome thought. Now if I could just get myself to trust that notion more. I still have many self doubts about people liking me. Which leads into my next topic...the hottie in a uniform update.
I know many have been waiting patiently for an update. I have been a little leery about sharing too many details, but just let me say that things are good...and crazy...and wonderful...and awful...and confusing...and hopeful. Could there be more of a roller coaster of emotions lately. OMG, I am such a hormonal teenager! We are moving very slowly and I think it is God's way of teaching me some important lessons in patience, self control, obedience, and understanding that things happen in His timing, not mine. It is so important for me to enjoy the journey and try not to over think things. Slow is good...oh so good. And if I am patient enough it will only get sweeter all the time. :)