They've been coming just a bit slower, but saw a new number on the scale this morning, 268 pounds. That's a loss of 35 pounds since I started this whole journey this past summer and 9 since surgery almost 3 weeks ago, averaging 3 pounds a week. I have been enjoying the new food choices that the mushies phase allows. Today it was some yummy chicken salad and cottage cheese. Who knew that could be so darn enjoyable!
This past weekend I had this thought of "oh my gosh, what did I get myself into?" I think I was thinking too much. Thinking about every bite of food, being completely obsessed with chewing and even thinking ahead to my first fill. All the sudden I just felt overwhelmed by the choice I had made to have surgery. The thought passed, but it was just one of those moments where I realized that as long as I have my band, I will always be ultra aware of what I am eating--and I suppose that really is the point, isn't it? I think it was also the fact that I am eating so carefully as to avoid any PB's or getting stuck that I am having to overly think every decision of what I put into my mouth.
I was also feeling a little overwhelmed about food choices and grocery shopping. I feel like I am starting at square one, wiping the slate clean and everything I used to do has to change. The old stand-by's on the grocery list just won't work anymore. I guess all that information swimming around my brain just caught up to me as a moved to a new stage--pretty normal response I would guess. Learning a new life takes time and patience!