This is not going well. This morning I stepped on the scale to see 221. That is up 5 pounds for the month. Yes, I said up, not down. This is not the direction I need. I don't know how to stop this freight train of a mess. My life feels so out of control right now when it comes to food. My work has got me stressed out, eating the wrong things and I have very little control over what's available for food this week as I am on on the road and involved in several meetings that include meals. Although I know that ultimately, I am in control of what goes into my mouth, but this schedule this past few weeks is kicking my ass.
I am also contributing a few pounds of gain to starting the Pill this month. That isn't helping anything both physiologically and hormonally and I know I have some water weight and some hormonally guided eating choices. It also doesn't help that there is a holiday next week and we know how food is often the centerpiece of those family gatherings.
I have been reading up on the 5 day pouch test, I am sure you've seen this. It's a way to sort of "reset" your band. I am sooooo thinking that this may be a needed action step. I am cringing at the fact that I may not have a loss this month. I do not want to write that down here on my blog. So I guess I need to figure out how to wipe out these 5 pounds in the next two weeks. I would even be happy with just getting back to 216, which I started the month off with. A one pound loss would be awesome. For the first time in over a year I am really at a loss of how to make my body do what I want it to do. For the longest time all I had to do was listen to my band, and right now it's just not helping me out. Then again, my brain isn't helping me much either...I could definitely make better choices. Let's be honest, based on the food you have been throwing down your throat lately, it's not your band that is failing...news flash...it's YOU.
So starting this morning I am drinking water like it was going out of style, trying to flush my system a bit and maybe get rid of some water weight. I am going to try very hard today to only eat extremely healthy choices. No junk food, no chocolate, very little carbs and lots of high quality protein. This is a tough month and the clock is ticking to rid myself of these extra pounds.