I did it!!! Today was the day the scale finally gave me 203, officially giving me a total pre-op/post op loss of 100 pounds. I did it! I did it! I can't believe it, a triple digit loss from my high of 303. This is a BIG day. I am feeling a little emotional about it, both good and bad. Like one minute I am shouting it out from the roof tops and the next minute I am feeling like I could cry. Saying that number out loud, 100 pounds, is insane. Other people can claim it...but me? Me? Really?
I don't believe it is true. I feel like my body and mind are still playing catch up. Losing 100 pounds is a huge transformation--it has to be, but yet sometimes my mind just cannot wrap itself around the changes, even if I look at pictures and see the difference. I love reading the blogs and seeing the progress others have made and their transformations, and yet sometimes I think I have blinders on to my own transformation, like it is somehow skewed by years worth of denial about how I truly looked. It's going to take a long time to trust that I have the ability to be "normal". How do others see me? Does the reflection I see in my head match what they are seeing? Sometimes I wonder.
What a great day and another wonderful milestone fulfilled. I am so proud of myself and so glad that I made these changes in my life. I have so much work to do yet, but I thank God for every wonderful step towards becoming a new, better version of me. Thanks to all my wonderful blogging friends too, it's so nice to have someone to share all this craziness with. Next stop onederland!