Saturday, January 29, 2011

I've Lost 100 Pounds!!!!!

I did it!!! Today was the day the scale finally gave me 203, officially giving me a total pre-op/post op loss of 100 pounds. I did it! I did it! I can't believe it, a triple digit loss from my high of 303. This is a BIG day. I am feeling a little emotional about it, both good and bad. Like one minute I am shouting it out from the roof tops and the next minute I am feeling like I could cry. Saying that number out loud, 100 pounds, is insane. Other people can claim it...but me? Me? Really?

I don't believe it is true. I feel like my body and mind are still playing catch up. Losing 100 pounds is a huge transformation--it has to be, but yet sometimes my mind just cannot wrap itself around the changes, even if I look at pictures and see the difference. I love reading the blogs and seeing the progress others have made and their transformations, and yet sometimes I think I have blinders on to my own transformation, like it is somehow skewed by years worth of denial about how I truly looked. It's going to take a long time to trust that I have the ability to be "normal". How do others see me? Does the reflection I see in my head match what they are seeing? Sometimes I wonder.

What a great day and another wonderful milestone fulfilled. I am so proud of myself and so glad that I made these changes in my life. I have so much work to do yet, but I thank God for every wonderful step towards becoming a new, better version of me. Thanks to all my wonderful blogging friends too, it's so nice to have someone to share all this craziness with. Next stop onederland!

25 comments:

  1. Congrats! I just hit 100 last weekend. It does seem very crazy to say out loud. celebrate you deserve it

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  2. Way to go CeeJay!!! You'll be in Wonderland before you know it!

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  3. WOW, WOW, WOW, WOW, WOW. So very happy for you. 100 truly is an amazing number. And so close to onederland.

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  4. What an amazing day! Yay for you, big time!

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  5. I'm so happy for you! Huge congratulations, you've done so well.
    You are an inspiration to me, I was just digging in the garden thinking how hard it was after about 5 minutes and I thought of you shovelling snow, you're amazing.
    I'm going to do my very very best to catch you very soon!

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  6. What a wonderful way to start the weekend!

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  7. Congrats! I'm preparing for my surgery on Monday morning and I needed to read this! My doctor tried to talk me out of the lap band because he said its rare that people lose 100lbs with it! I'm so happy to see how many hit that big milestone!!

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  8. That is great! You've been working hard for it! YAY!

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  9. YAY!!!!!! Totally awesome!!!

    Keep taking those pics of yourself...it helps with the blinders.

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  10. Girl, of course you should believe it.....you worked your fanny off for the 100 pound weight loss. I am so happy for you!

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  11. Congratulations to you!! That is so awesome!

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  12. Terrific news!! Keep up the great work!

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  13. Woo Hoo!!!!! I am right behind you. Just 7 to go! Congrats!

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  14. That is so exciting. You must be so proud.

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  15. ♥´) ¸.•´¸.•*´¨) ¸.•*¨)
    (¸.•´ ♥ WONDERFUL ♥

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  16. Holy Shit that's fantastic!!!!! I am in awe of you!! You worked your butt off (literally) to get there and onderland will be yours so soon!!! Congratulations!!!

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  17. Welcome to the club!!! YOU did it,the band is only a tool. So thrilled for you!

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  18. Congrats on the 100lb loss! That is Amazing! Keep up the good work!

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  19. Thanks for the comments everyone!! Such a wonderful day!

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  20. WOOT!!! And you're on the cusp of Onederland, too!! Way to go!! That is so SO awesome!!

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  21. Wow! Congratulations. What an inspiration.

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