Monday, December 13, 2010

Getting Laid...One Heck of an NSV

Well, after seeing the writing on the wall this past weekend I decided to call it quits with my eHarmony guy. I wanted more, he wasn't interested in more and as much as he wanted to be "just friends" my poor inexperienced heart just couldn't live with that.

I learned something about myself tonight...I am worth something. Being the fat girl my whole life, I do not have much experience with relationships---ok let's be totally honest with you, my blogging sisters, I am 38 and this is the first one for me. Yep, there I said it. I was a total virgin up until about 2 months ago. For a long time I was embarrassed about that, another hurtful part about being overweight much of my life. I was missing out on so much. No boyfriends in high school, no prom, no first kiss, no dates in college. How could anyone like me when I couldn't like myself at 300 pounds? One of my favorite movies is the 40 Year Old Virgin--perhaps because I could relate so well to it. I am happy to say that eHarmony guy was at least good for one thing...as I can say I checked one thing off my bucket list before I turned 40!

What I realized tonight was that I deserve more from life. It's ok for me to have hopes and dreams and to not settle for a guy because I am living in fear that another one may not come along who could love a fat girl/former fat girl. There is an unbelievable amount of baggage there that I need to deal with and I think I am doing it a little tonight. It's OK to want more, and to ask for what you need.

Ha ha, I just thought of something, I suppose losing my virginity is an NSV...perhaps it is the NSV of all NSV's! Better mark that one down on the list of lapband accomplishments. I will shout it from the rooftops, I don't care who knows. Weight loss helped me get laid for the first time...and the second...and the third. Here's to a whole lot more opportunities to get laid!

11 comments:

  1. I personally think the even bigger and better NSV is you breaking up with the guy who couldn't give you what you want because you know you deserve more. Good for you!

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  2. I am with Bonnie!! You are one powerfully strong woman and you will find the right guy for you.

    XXXOOO

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  3. Great NSV! And I'm glad you kicked this guy to the curb...he doesn't know what he's missing!

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  4. I'm glad you had the chance to lose the V-card and that you feel so good about it-- and I agree with the ladies above that I'm also glad that you are strong enough to be assertive about what you want and confident enough to go after it. Don't settle-- whether it's at 38 or 40 or 42, there's a fulfilling, wonderful relationship out there for you if you give yourself permission to take what you deserve and not let the less-than-worthy ones get to you.

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  5. That may be the best NSV I've ever heard!

    I predict much love and affection coming your way! You are beautiful and fun and nice and you've got your life together.

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  6. I am so with Bonnie on this one. She said it better than I could have. On to bigger and better (ok yes that was a pun) things!

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  7. Love your blog! I agree with the other comments, the perfect guy is out there just waiting for you to find him. Never settle for less than you want!

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  8. That NSV is so awesome! I know you will find your Mr. Wonderful very soon. I am so glad you didn't hang on to someone is wasn't worth your time. Life is too short not to be happy.

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  9. Awesome NSV!! Good job getting rid of that guy who couldn't give you what you needed. You'll find the right one.

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